Know Thy Self.....for so long I swam in the shallows here, not knowing there was a deep....for there was a time I could not even fathom what was to come.
The surrender....to look with in and not out, to die with out dying...to not cast a reflection...this space, this place was found in my darkest of dark moments...in a Self destruction that would leave me stripped raw and with nothing and no one to grasp.
My own doing...and it was here I burned alive. To burn...to suffer...alone, with no one...to fall on ones knees and brake down....to no thing.
To be alone with Ones Self and Ones own being. To feel shame, blame and self disgust and know one is lost and toxic, in a space where good reason holds no place.
It is that it is...I Am that I Am...take away the story, the events, the experiences...the hells I had walked...the series of unfortunate events that followed....the abuse, self and also inflicted by others, the trauma, the disfunction, the chaos and madness...... it did not exist here.
Just myself...like the end of the world...and for the first time I saw that I could no longer go on...no longer do that I do or be that I Am...."take me God", I whispered with all I had left..."take me".
"I Am here, I Am always here", came a thundering voice...as clear as day...words but not words...what in the world. I felt this all throughout the fibre being, my core...throughout the room, throughout the confines that I found myself, through out the Earth, the cosmos, the Universe...
These worlds filled every pocket of creation....I felt alive...I felt connected.....I felt Love. I was no longer burning...realising I had been on fire all my life....and in this space, on the floor, on my knees I found that I had been seeking all my life. Peace.
Later I was to know this experience as the Surrender, the second death, the second coming, Awakening....many many names, in many many words of light.
The magic was in the intent of the words "take me".
My consciousness changed....I did not want to die, I did not want to disappear. I saw Kylie for the first time...I was not looking out...I was looking in...at everything. To be disgusted at Self...Self is singular...it cannot turn on itself...hence I must be two...
The birthing of consciousness.
I had new eyes...everything was beautiful, everything made sense, everything was connected and everything was love.
That in which was...was no more...and that in which had always been..was now in my awareness. I was processing different...I had a clarity that took me by surprise. My world, my power....my creation.
KyRa was birthed....Know Thy Self !!!
KyRa xxx
