Sometimes it feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Some days, you see no sunshine...only storm after storm. When you feel like you have turned over every rock, gone down every road only to discover dead ends. Every rabbit hole, only to pop up in the same place. To get up over and over again, only to get knocked down....
And the only thing that hurts....is that you know you will get up again...so for now...I shall just watch the stars.
"I'm tired....please show me that I do not know."
I laugh...for at the time of throwing in the towel, in the 11 hour...always...if One can go past the state of fear....the light will come...."don't let go...step out...be patient child. The Light will come...in ways that are going to blow your mind."
I will be full of light, full of knowing and purpose.
You are not lost...your are full of new knowing...which has confused all your circuits....new light does this...at first.
As your old paradigm crumbles before your eyes...there is nothing for the mind to grasp. Everything changes...what was...is not any more...and in the space of gaining your senses...your rewiring so to speak...you are full of disfunction as the new takes place with in. Shows you were your pain comes from....where you are unaligned, what is not in your highest good and where you hold untruths.
You loose your senses for a while...for the primal is still in tact...for now...and it holds no connection to that of our Soul...no Divine intelligence. It is the beast, the 666, that in which is earthly, that of flight or fight...that in which is primitive and holds only that of survival, and the instincts that come with it. Oh and the tantrum for things are not as the Ego feels it should be. Oh the tantrums.....
And it is rife in many forms on our Planet in the now...suffering everywhere and all it brings. It touches Us all...in ways most cannot even comprehend.
For now...I know nothing...I have no idea what is to come...for I am to tired to struggle any more. I will just lay here, until that I do not know comes to light...then...them my darlings....I'm going to cause some waves.
KyRa xxx